Human doing yoga

So after a helpful suggestion that I get some professional yoga pictures taken for advertising (eugh – I hate the two of those words in one sentence), the Universe dropped into my lap a wonderful photographer on a similar hippy wavelength called Alan (Instagram – Images by Alan Thomas). We were both very open-minded about the whole thing and decided to just go with it. With the help of my lovely friend, Denise, we found some lovely spots in Ayr, Scotland and even timed it with the best Scottish Summer we have had in years!

Before we took the photos, we both looked online for inspiration and I found some lovely photos, but also went through a period of self-doubt as I looked at all of the pictures of extremely lithe women in fantastic poses and compared myself to them. Thankfully I have now learned to catch these thoughts and can say to myself that there is no perfection – not in life or in yoga. I am enough in the body I have, doing the yoga I am doing. The purpose of the photos is not to look like an image of yogic perfection, but to portray ‘me’ expressing myself as I move my body and breathe. Thanks to Alan, my photographer, who was all about expressing ourselves and having fun, I felt at ease and just did whatever felt good at the time.

The ones at the skatepark were purely for fun. I was really nervous that day because as we drove up we could see a big row of young ‘dudes’ hanging out. Thankfully Alan was cool and went straight up to them and told them we were just going to take some photos. One of them was like straight away, “You want me to do some moves for the photos?” “Skating, yoga, it’s all the same thing man…” was his take on it. Once I got over my nerves, it was great fun and I am really pleased with these photos. I don’t claim to be a ‘true yogi,’ whatever that is. I’m not an expert or a guru, as I said to Alan, “Every few hundred years you get enlightened souls, the rest of us are just humans doing yoga.” It’s taken a lot of work for me to find this self-acceptance, but I am pretty cool with being a human doing yoga.






Hello people,

I have been a little absent from my blogging over the past few months.

I have still been writing and have actually finished two books, one that has been published and one that I am planning to publish in the next couple of months!

The first one is available now and is a collaboration with my friend, Jenny called Drive-Thru Success.

Drive-Thru Success explains the science of success and provides you with the how in the form of practical exercises based on the best personal development programmes and philosophies in the world. Jenny has been a coach for over 30 years and has learned a great deal about what kind of things work and what don’t. It’s not just about success in your career, it’s about feeling like you are living a successful life.

I helped Jenny finish the book and get it into a format for publishing. At the same time, I did the exercises and Jenny coached me. It was such a life-changing experience and I think the more time passes, the more I will realise just how much that process has helped me to become the person I am today and to seize opportunities that come my way.

I am going to be posting quite a few blogs from These will be a lot like the articles and opinion pieces that I used to post on this blog.

So if you are interested in reading about things like feeling like your missing something in your life, wondering how you ended up stuck down the rabbit hole, what anxiety disorders are and what you can do to retrain your brain, and why I believe social media is going to change ‘the thin ideal’, then go on and have a look!

I really appreciate all of the support and feedback we have received from everyone about the book. We had a really fun launch in October last year at Waterstones. It all felt so real and amazing, truly one of the best weeks of my life. Seeing the finished product in our hands was just so wonderful – we managed to catch our reactions, you can click here if you want to see them. I would just like to point out that that is me really excited, I don’t jump up and down or anything lol. Jenny’s reaction is better lol!

The second one is a book about a female secret service agent called Miss Jane.

This came about because I wrote an article for moviescramble called Girls On Film and Why I Want To Be the Hero . I was so taken with Emily Blunt as a female Bond, that I started writing about one! I am now writing the second book and I have to say that it was so much fun writing that book, just pure fantasy! If you are interested in checking that one out, comment below to be added to the mailing list to find out when it is available to buy.


This blog was actually the first place I ever shared my writing and it was such a great experience sharing things with people and seeing so many other people out there doing their own writing things. It kept me writing every day sometimes and all these things lead to what you do next!

So big thanks to the WordPress blogging community and anyone who ever liked, commented or shared any of my posts.








What is the point?

You want to know the absolute truth? Sometimes, I think to myself, maybe this is all a load of shite. All of this positive thinking, energy, vibration, all you have to do is believe in yourself and visualise and all of your dreams will come true. If it really was that simple – why are we not all doing it? Why are we not all living lives of abundance and happiness all of the time? The truth is, of course, it is not all that simple. In life – nothing is. There are so many different things you would have to consider to even ask for the right things, that you could spend all of your time visualising and asking, and none of your time actually doing anything at all. Or you can ask for all of the things you want, and when they turn up, they have all of these extras or bits missing that mean there were not what you were really looking for, but you can’t totally say that it didn’t work, because when you think about it, you did get what you asked for – it is just not how you imagined it. Or, you might have a life of abundance and wealth, but not be aware enough to realise it. Certainly in comparison to many people in the world, a great deal of us are living incredibly abundant, luxurious lifestyles.

The other problem is: other people. They never do what you want them to do, they continually do things you don’t expect, they hurt you, they leave you, they demand things from you, they insult you, ridicule you, talk about you behind your back, question your integrity, your talent, your intelligence. In the end, you realise that can’t trust any of them to do what you would do or to make your life feel worthwhile. So where does that leave you? Why bother with all of these practices, why bother learning, meditating, reading, listening, trying to understand the anomaly that is life? Is it simply that when you are doing these things, you don’t have to listen to other people’s bullshit? Is it because you don’t have to think about the countless mundane tasks that you have to do every day just to get from getting out of bed in the morning to getting back into it in a warm safe environment, fed, watered and exercised enough to sleep?

I went to a meditation course at Kagyu Samye Ling Monastery and Tibetan Centre at the beginning of the month, and I asked a question – not because I didn’t feel the benefits of meditation, but because I couldn’t form an idea in my head of why it makes me feel better doing it. I asked how the teacher would describe the purpose of meditation. Of course, she answered that if I was doing it for a purpose, then I was not meditating. I answered that I understood that, but then if there is no purpose, why do it? She answered that it was simply to calm your mind, and to feel at peace. To feel something other than frazzled. I can relate to that. I am aware that I mostly meditate to simply stop for a few minutes to rest my body and my mind.

So all of this striving, this goal writing, and vision board making – how do you keep hold of that purpose when it seems like things are going nowhere? What if you have no goals or visions? There is a part of me that thinks perhaps I would be much more at peace if I simply gave them all up. I truly considered how it might be to experience life as a Buddhist monk. You wouldn’t have any concerns – no bills, no mortgage, no job with its demands and stresses, you wouldn’t have responsibilities, or traffic jams, or image issues. You would simply go about your daily routine with no purpose at all, except to meditate and chant and talk. I can’t tell you how tempting that is. Yet still, I find that I would not be willing to give up my life for that type of peace. I can imagine leaving my ordinary life and becoming a Buddhist. But I find that I don’t want to.

All of this stuff that I have been doing – the gratitude diary, journal writing, self-development, talking about and writing down what it is I like and don’t like about my life, what it is I really want – has made me realise that I do love the life I have. Not the thought of another life, not the life I will have in 10 years time, not a time in the past when I was happy, not life in general, as separate to me, but this life. As me, not as someone thinner, or taller, or prettier, or smarter, or with more drive, or more charming, but me. In Bridget Jones, like many women I imagine, I love the line when Mark Darcy says to Bridget, “I like you, just as you are.” Finally, I feel like that about myself, but not in an over-confident, arrogant, egotistical way. I don’t think I am especially good, I am not happy all of the time, I suffer from anxiety, and feelings of depression, despondency, shame, guilt, and self-consciousness. Things go wrong, I act in ways I shouldn’t, I don’t always do the right thing, I let things annoy me, I get irritable, I make mistakes, I get stressed, but still I would not give up being me or swap me for someone else. And that is only something I have begun to feel after learning about energy, vibration and meditation. The only thing that is real, the teacher said to us, is sensory experiences (feeling pain, hearing a noise, seeing something, breathing, physically moving), as soon as you start thinking about any of those things, it is a concept in your brain, and you can’t argue that it is real. Your brain is translating those sensory experiences into thoughts, and you have feelings about those thoughts.

So, I am trying to practice enjoying the things I am doing, and that really goes hand in hand with making sure I do the things I enjoy. That involves a great deal of exploration, trial and error, and learning to be aware of how I feel right now. The only way to know that is to stop, look at your thoughts and feelings without judgement, and consider how to act accordingly. So, I write, I meditate, I talk about life, I sing to myself, I dance in the kitchen when I am emptying the dishwasher, I sit in the garden and listen to the birds, I walk, I give myself little tasks so that I can achieve them – for no other reason than it feels good while I am doing it. I don’t live in blissful happiness having once learned the secret about how to live life. My life is messy right now, a lot of things are changing, I don’t feel the kind of stability I like to have, I have a lot of decisions to make, but still, I choose to go ahead with it all anyway because I like it: this life.

Monday Inspiration: Be a rascal!



Inspired by the awesome Alan Watts and his book, ‘You’re It,’ today’s Monday inspiration is about embracing your inner rascal. Too many of us spend so much time trying to be righteous and good (myself included these days) that we forget that is not the true essence of what human beings are. There is absolutely nothing wrong with’the irreducible element of rascality’ present in any honest human being. Watts used it to describe Carl Jung after he met him. What it means is, don’t forget that we are flawed, and that that is absolutely ok – but be playful with it.